Why does it always seem to fall on me? (A confession to myself) [23F]

He [23M] has gone to bed on bad terms with me more times than I can count. We've been together for over a year now, and it feels like I've stopped mattering to him. Ironically, at the start of our relationship, he promised he would never treat me this way. I just can’t understand how someone can become so indifferent so suddenly. This doesn’t feel like love to me; in fact, I don’t think he loves me at all. I don’t even know what caused this change, and honestly, I don’t want to find out. I just want to move on and be happy because I deserve it. He shows no interest in sharing my thoughts or concerns about the future, and whenever I try, he responds with something completely irrelevant. This frustrates me and leads to more conflicts, like what happened yesterday. Additionally, his communication style is a major red flag for me. He recently tried to downplay some serious issues by framing them as "doubt," avoiding the real problems and ignoring my feelings entirely. I don’t want to discuss anything with him anymore because he always makes it about him and plays the victim. It’s frustrating to hear him say things like “Maile testo bhanya haina” or “Maile testo bhanna khojya haina,” along with other excuses. If this were only the first or second time, it would be understandable, but it’s not, and I’m brave enough to recognize that I need to take this step. I can't allow myself to be convinced otherwise. I could be mistaken, but I won't regret leaving. Love shouldn't feel like this, and I've gotten my answer. I can’t expect someone to learn how to love me. I thought he was the one until yesterday, but now I see how naive I was. After breaking up with him a month ago, I realized so much, and it was a mistake to get back together. He only seems to express care when I threaten to end the relationship, which feels manipulative. While he does have good qualities, perhaps I was just blinded by my feelings. Honestly, I don't want to dwell on the positives because that’s when I get hurt, and the cycle repeats. It’s become clear to me that this relationship isn’t fulfilling me, and I won’t waste any more time on him. I've stopped wanting to share my life with him because what’s significant to me doesn’t seem to matter to him. I’m certain this time is final. Even if it takes years to heal, it’s worth it to avoid settling for someone who clearly doesn’t meet my standards. It’s for the best for both of us. One thing I won’t overlook is that during intimacy, he never cares about my satisfaction or asks if I’m enjoying it. He seems solely focused on his own pleasure, which says a lot about him. If I were to return to him after recognizing all these signs, I’d just be fooling myself and undermining my own self-worth. Loving him more than he loves me is unhealthy, and I know I’m not meant to be with someone like that. I refuse to be hurt over these issues in a relationship. I shouldn’t have to sacrifice or compromise in love. I deserve so much better than empty words and his attempts to control me. This isn’t love, and I can’t afford to be blind to it anymore.