Afraid to Share About My Boyfriend with Mom

For some context, I'm an 18-year-old African American woman with autism, and my boyfriend is a 20-year-old Egyptian man who has been living in the U.S. for two years. We met on Tinder around April and chatted on iMessages for a few days before meeting up in person. Before our first date, we exchanged nudes, and he mentioned, "We don't know each other, so it would be nice to get to know each other first." We decided to go to a semi-formal restaurant. He was more talkative than I was, which made me a bit anxious since I struggle with maintaining eye contact. He paid for everything, and once we got into the car, I began to relax. We had a great conversation as he drove me around. Things escalated when I admitted I was "horny" and offered him oral sex. He hesitated at first and said, "Maybe next time." I respected his feelings, but he later asked if I was sure about my offer, and I confirmed that I wanted to proceed. I ended up giving him oral sex, but then I wanted to stop and have sex instead. He was keen, but when we were about to go further, I realized I wasn't ready. He attempted to penetrate me but struggled because I was tense from stress. He asked, "Do I not arouse you, or are you playing games with me?" I then suggested we try anal sex instead, which we did. Unfortunately, the condom broke during his ejaculation. I asked him what was wrong, and he told me about the broken condom, adding, "There's nothing we can do now." On the car ride back to my house, we had a brief conversation: **BF:** I loved when you **[explicit content]** **Me:** Thank you. **BF:** You okay? **Me:** Yeah, I'm fine. **BF:** You didn't seem like it. You can tell me what happened. **Me:** It's fine. **BF:** Oh, okay. Well, I hope you have a good day. **Me:** Don’t you want to come with me? **BF:** No, I'm sorry. I have to be somewhere soon. **Me:** *Kisses him* **BF:** *Kisses me back* Once I got home, I checked my phone and saw that he had blocked me on iMessages. I burst into tears and ended up telling my parents what had happened. Naturally, they were upset with him. For months, I felt crushed, questioning what I did wrong and how things could have turned out differently. In August, he unblocked me and apologized, explaining that he was sorry for blocking me and that he found it awkward since he had never had sex on the first date, especially after the condom broke. We exchanged messages for a bit, but in September I chose to block him again to heal from the pain he caused. During that time, I reflected on the situation and realized that, ultimately, it was his choice, not mine. By November, I unblocked him, and we started communicating again. He expressed how much he missed me and felt hurt by the breakup, saying that I was genuinely nice and he didn’t want to lose me again. After about three weeks of talking, we began dating. We’ve been together since the end of November, but we haven't seen each other since April. He wants to meet, but I've been too anxious to tell my mother about our relationship. I want to be open with her since keeping it a secret adds stress, but I'm worried she might overreact, especially since she isn’t keen on me dating anyone without her knowing them—especially given a past incident that made her and my father wary of him. How can I approach my mother about him? **TL;DR:** After our first date, he blocked me because he felt I was "moving too fast," and the condom broke. I cried to my parents about it, and they didn't like him. Later, he unblocked me, apologized, and we reconnected. I blocked him again to heal, then unblocked him a month later, and we've been dating for a few weeks. Now I’m anxious about telling my mother about him.