The husband is unsure.

My husband and I have been married for five months and together for eight and a half years. While I was on a five-week trip to visit family, he called me three days before I returned and told me he wasn’t looking forward to my homecoming. He mentioned that he enjoyed being alone and wanted a divorce, expressing fear about being with the same woman for life and missing the thrill of dating other girls. During my absence, he had been spending a lot of time with three single friends who often brag about their freedom, casual encounters, and open relationships. When I finally arrived home after a grueling 30-hour journey, I was filled with anxiety about what to expect. To my surprise, he said he viewed me as his "medicine" and felt better when he was with me. He insisted that our relationship was wonderful and that he didn’t lack anything, claiming he would never find someone as good as me with the same connection. He expressed that he now faced a choice between the shallow pursuit of other girls, something he claims not to want, and remaining in a loving marriage where he feels valued. He also shared that he has slept with only five people in his life and feels he has missed out, noting that he was 28 when we met and is now almost 36 and worried about approaching middle age. We sought the help of a couple’s therapist, who suggested that his feelings might arise only when I’m away and then subside when I return. This likely relates to unresolved childhood traumas; he comes from a turbulent background and didn’t have strong examples of healthy marriages or a loving environment. Things have started to feel somewhat normal again, and we've been discussing this issue openly, but I still feel deeply hurt. It feels as though I'm not enough for him. He reassures me that it’s not about me, saying he is the one struggling and that I am amazing. He’s apologized for expressing a desire for divorce and acknowledged that he needs to work on his thoughts. He keeps emphasizing that he is the one who needs help. Over the past three weeks, I haven’t felt like myself and have lost my enthusiasm for life, aside from going to the gym. I attempt to maintain a cheerful demeanor around him to convey that things can be okay, but I feel very lost. My husband says he is committed to therapy because he wants to make our marriage work. To add to this, we are set to buy a house together in four weeks. How do I cope with this profound sadness and hurt? I feel betrayed by my husband, but I know I need to set aside these feelings to move forward, yet I’m not sure how. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Is it common for people to question their long-term commitment in this way? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I feel stuck in this difficult situation. **TL;DR:** My husband is having doubts about staying with me for life.