Lonely Twink hopes to reconcile with his attractive girlfriend.

I'm an 18-year-old guy and I want to get back together with my ex-girlfriend, who is 19. My mom manipulated me into ending our one-year relationship, and I'm wondering if I should reach out to her. A bit of background: we started dating during our senior year of high school in the second semester. Our relationship grew deeper, and while we shared some intimate moments, we never had sex. I was genuinely in love with her, and it seemed like she felt the same. However, my mom, who has suffered brain damage from a car accident and has a pattern of emotional manipulation and abuse towards my sister and me, had unrealistic ideas about my future. She fantasizes about me marrying a “perfect” woman who fits her narrow view of beauty and family life. On the outside, I’m 6’1”, fit, and often told I’m attractive, but I struggle with short-term memory issues and self-esteem, mainly focusing on engineering and robotics. My mom has always been overly concerned with my reputation, often bragging about me in a strange way and being verbally abusive when I didn’t meet her expectations. As for my ex, she has a beautiful angular nose that reminds me of a Greek statue, but my mom dismissed her because she didn't fit her ideal of a thin, blonde woman. Despite my mom’s constant pressure to break up, I didn’t waver until a family trip to Connecticut. During the long drive, my mom relentlessly pointed out my ex’s flaws and convinced me that my relationship wouldn’t last. By the time we reached our destination, I was filled with doubt and, unfortunately, by the time we returned, I felt pressured to end things. We had a week-long camping trip planned, which was supposed to be our first real vacation together, but my mom convinced me that going while planning to break up would be unfair to my ex. This left me with only one day to break up with her, and it was an incredibly painful experience for me. Since then, I’ve been plagued by guilt and regret, realizing how much I truly love her. I initially thought it best to give her space for a month, but the pain in her eyes haunts me. Eventually, she reached out, and we started talking as friends, but I can sense her hurt, and I feel terrible about what happened. I’ve been trying to maintain a friendly demeanor, but it's daunting. I want nothing more than to get back together, but I’m unsure if she feels the same way or if she’s genuinely better off without me. It’s been three months since we broke up, and I’m at a loss for what to do next. What should I do?