Significant age difference: Female, 21; Male, 33.

My boyfriend and I have been together for three years. I'm 21, and he’s 33, which means we have a significant age difference of 12 years. I genuinely feel his love and adoration for me, and I feel the same way about him. However, I can’t shake the feeling that I might be missing out on some life experiences. This is my first relationship, so everything is quite new for me. On the other hand, he has had several relationships in the past, each lasting between 2 to 5 years. For context, we share two dogs that we got together, and we've been living together for two and a half years. Both of us are dancers, but while he is nearing the end of his career, I’m just starting mine. This makes me feel like he might be holding me back or settling down too soon. We both share the same views on marriage and children, and neither of us is ready for that yet. My family loves him, and his family loves me, yet I still feel this urge to experience life independently. However, I’m unsure how to navigate life without him since I moved to his country and left all my friends behind. When we first started dating, I discovered some concerning things, like him liking half-naked pictures of other girls after we had explicitly discussed my discomfort with it, as well as meeting up with his ex-girlfriends. I also caught him lying multiple times, and as someone who values loyalty and commitment, this really hurt me. He acknowledges that he was in the wrong and has since begun therapy to work on his issues, claiming he’s changed—at least that’s how I perceive it. I realize that leaving him would devastate both of us, but I’m feeling incredibly confused. It may sound dramatic, but I truly can’t imagine my life without him. He has been incredibly supportive, especially through my struggles with anxiety. Once again, I'm at a crossroads—I don’t want to miss out on dancing, training, and traveling, but I also don’t want to lose what we have built together. Leaving him feels like a drastic decision, especially since our relationship is generally very good!