What are my long-distance boyfriend's true feelings for me? I'm 22 and he's 30.
I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for two years, but because of my hectic school schedule and living abroad, we only met in person at the beginning of this year when I traveled to the US to see him. I organized my visit for the days he had off work so he wouldn’t need to take extra time off just for me. While I was there, I stayed at a hotel, and we planned for him to come to see me, as our families are unaware of our relationship—we wanted to see how things went in person first. However, despite knowing I was visiting and promising to spend the day with me, he had to leave after just two hours because his brother called. I didn’t mind this too much since I respect how much he values family, which is something I really appreciate about him. During my trip, he came to see me three times, but we never left the hotel room. We talked, watched movies, cuddled, and then he would go home. By the end of the visit, I felt disheartened and a bit taken for granted. I had traveled so far and spent quite a bit of money, all for just a few hours together, without having a proper date. This experience made me reflect on other aspects of our relationship: - He has never inquired about my past or family, and he sometimes dodges my questions about his own, suggesting we should focus on the future instead. - He only calls me when he’s in the car or at work but never when he's at home, likely because he lives with family and wants to keep our relationship under wraps. - When I ask him about our future, he always suggests that we should concentrate on the present so we don’t get ahead of ourselves. Reading what I’ve written makes it clear that he may not have strong feelings, yet there’s another side to him. He tells me he loves me, calls me his wife, manages to find time to call me during work breaks, and offers reassurance whenever I feel insecure or uncertain. We were friends for two years prior to dating. I’ve always had feelings for him, though he initially didn’t feel the same and wasn’t ready for a relationship. Eventually, he realized he wanted to be with me, saying he didn’t want to go a day without talking to me and couldn’t stop thinking about me. I’ve asked him whether he truly loves me, if I make him happy, and if he genuinely wants to be with me. He has always responded with patience and reassurance. Nonetheless, a part of me wonders if he’s not that interested in me and simply enjoys the attention I give him, especially considering how our meeting went.