My boyfriend (20M) decided to spend Valentine’s Day with his friend (20M) instead of me.
Today is Valentine’s Day, and my boyfriend ([20M] and I [18F] have been planning for this day for over a month. The last time I saw him was during the December break, which didn't go well because he promised to see me again, but it never happened. He suggested we wait until Valentine’s Day since we both have busy schedules with school. A couple of days ago, we had a minor argument because I wanted to go out for dinner and catch a movie, but he was reluctant at first. After some convincing, he agreed but asked me to handle the reservations. I explained that I was swamped with schoolwork and asked why he couldn’t make the reservations instead. He said he would take care of it the next morning. When the morning came (yesterday), all the nearby restaurants were fully booked, and he suggested we just go to the movies instead. I was upset because I had been looking forward to seeing him for over a month, but he claimed I never mentioned wanting to eat out, only the movie. I expressed disappointment that he didn't think to surprise me, but then I tried to stay optimistic, mentioning that there was only a small chance I wouldn’t be able to meet him due to schoolwork. An hour later, I told him it was all clear and that I could meet him after all. But he informed me he had already made plans to go to the movies with his friend (20M) instead. I lost it because he hadn’t checked with me first before making new plans, especially so soon after I said I could probably make it. Now, on Valentine’s Day, I asked if he was still going with his friend, and he replied, “yes, he already booked the tickets 🙄.” I’m feeling utterly heartbroken. I’ve been with him for over two years, and while things were great in December, I don’t understand why he’s acting like this now. I'm torn about my feelings. I want to leave him, but the thought of being alone scares me. My friends are all with guys who treat them well, and I feel left out. I know I should probably end this relationship, but I don’t know how to start. I've tried taking breaks and other methods, but nothing seems to work. I feel so attached to him, and it hurts to know he feels I love him more than he loves me. Please, I need advice.