Guidance - [24 female] 24 male
We have been together for three years. Before this relationship, I experienced a series of betrayals—infidelity, lies, and manipulation—that left me questioning whether true love existed and if genuine men were real. Everything changed when I met my boyfriend. It was an instant connection, and we hit it off immediately. He treated me in the way I had always dreamed of being treated, and that tenderness has continued throughout our relationship. However, early on, he mentioned that his libido was quite low—“really, really low”—but at the time, I was so happy that I didn’t think much of it. The first year of our relationship was pure bliss, with intimacy that belied his earlier statement. I remember joking about his low libido, and he acknowledged it, noting that he had only had one brief relationship before ours, which lasted six months when he was just 17. Things shifted as we began to gain what people call "relationship weight." He explained that it affected his confidence, and we both committed to focusing on our health. Since then, we’ve gone through various phases regarding our fitness, yet in the last two years, we’ve been intimate fewer than ten times, and the frequency has steadily declined. Around the time this change occurred, we also had an unplanned pregnancy that ended very early, at six weeks. Additionally, he no longer kisses me the way he used to, opting for quick pecks instead. When I bring this up, he insists he kisses me "properly," but he tends to avoid further discussion about our differing libidos, which has led me to stop raising the topic altogether. Intimacy used to be very important to me, and I've struggled with the idea that I might be the issue. I've reached a point where I no longer initiate intimacy because I can’t handle the rejection, and I’ve lost the desire to do so because of that rejection. My past experiences have made me prioritize the wrong kinds of intimacy, overlooking the fact that there are other ways to connect without being sexual. Despite everything, he remains incredibly affectionate and genuinely cares for me. Having lived together for two years, we’ve never argued, and he goes above and beyond to ensure my happiness. The only challenge seems to be our differing libidos. I’ve conditioned myself to think less about it, but I still miss the sexual intimacy we had in the beginning. I find myself uncertain about how to approach this, especially since he was upfront about his libido from the start. I also recognize that I may have been in denial, struggling to understand why a man his age might not be interested in sex. While I’m grateful and don’t believe the grass is greener elsewhere—given my past traumas—I do appreciate that his low libido may help shield me from the risk of infidelity. I feel incredibly fortunate to have him in my life and can’t imagine being without him. Has anyone else faced a similar situation? Am I wrong to feel this way? I’d welcome any insights or shared experiences from others.