What are your thoughts?

I've never viewed words in this way before, and I'm not sure why it's needed. I've never truly experienced love. The idea of having children—or even pets—doesn't appeal to me. Yet, I do enjoy interacting with various people, and I find great pleasure in it. Sometimes, I may draw too close to someone, developing feelings that lead them to suggest a romantic relationship, at which point I tend to pull away. It's easier for me to fade from the lives of those who matter less, while it's much more difficult with those who mean more to me. Currently, I've been connecting with someone I find particularly appealing—someone I vibe with well, and we often flirt. I sense that my feelings for this person go beyond friendship, but the thought of being in a relationship sends me into a panic, making me feel trapped and prompting the urge to withdraw. What should I do when I like this person more than just a friend but don’t want any kind of romantic involvement? When I attempt to act as if we’re in a relationship, I feel a surge of panic; I want to be close, yet I also feel emotionally detached. I’ve never truly felt anything for anyone. For over a month, I’ve been grappling with the fear of ending up in a situation where I spend months with someone, only to lose interest or become confused about what’s happening, leading me to disappear and potentially hurt them. I've always struggled with taking responsibility and making decisions because I worry about committing to someone for life and then regretting it later. At times, I wonder if I might have traits of autism.