My boyfriend [M28] chose to spend time with his friends instead of being with me during our long-distance relationship.
My boyfriend [28M] and I [30F] have been in a long-distance relationship for a little over 2 years. Overall, things are great between us. We talk daily and end our nights together on video calls. It’s worth mentioning there’s a 5-hour time difference; by the time he finishes work, it's almost my bedtime. Recently, his cousin passed away, and I understood why our daily calls stopped. I gave him the space he needed to grieve and be with his family, messaging him to let him know I was thinking of him and available if he needed support. I was very worried about him throughout the week, even offering to fly out to be with him, but I received very little communication in return, which only heightened my anxiety. While I understood the situation, the silence felt unsettling. When Friday came, I had a work function but made sure to let him know I’d be home when he finished work so we could talk. He was on board, and we were both looking forward to our call. I even left my event early to be there for him, only to find out he had plans to go out with friends. We managed to stay on the call for just 10 minutes before he logged off, leaving me feeling hurt and disappointed. I tried to hide my feelings, but he noticed something was off before he left. This isn’t the first time I've felt sidelined in our relationship. There have been moments where it seems like he struggles to say no to others while I’m the one left waiting. For instance, on a visit to see him in his home country, he had to drop his sister off at home after picking me up from the airport, leaving me alone in the hotel for hours without a key. I understood he needed to help his uncle with a tech issue, but I felt abandoned in an unfamiliar place. In person, he’s different; however, during our long-distance times, I often feel disposable. This sense of disconnection has led me to question our relationship. I've been quite upset about this situation all week but have been trying to suppress my feelings out of respect for his grieving process. I love him deeply, but these experiences are painful for me. I’m left wondering if I’m overthinking things or overreacting. Right now, I feel a bit lost.