I'm unsure whether I should sort through my feelings and end my relationship with my boyfriend after a disagreement that left me feeling utterly alone and abandoned.

My boyfriend and I had planned a movie night for 7:30, where we would order takeout and watch a film together. When I got home from work around 3:30, I found him immersed in video games. He had lost track of time and thought it was a different day, but was pleasantly surprised to realize it was date night. He mentioned that he had been playing games earlier to make sure he could spend the evening with me. I usually avoid asking him how much longer he’ll be gaming to keep from annoying him, but by 6:45, I stepped out to check on him. It was clear I looked upset, and when I expressed my frustration about him still playing, he revealed he intended to continue until 7:30, our planned date time. I felt disheartened and communicated to him that I wanted to spend quality time together. His indifferent response of "and do what" hurt me deeply; it felt dismissive and made me feel inadequate. I stepped away to take a shower, needing space to cool down. While I was in the shower, he ordered dinner. Later, when we picked up the food together, he opened up about feeling irritable, admitting that he wanted me to motivate him to stop gaming. After we got home, he changed and went for a brief gym session. He texted me that he had left abruptly because he needed to clear his mind and that he wasn’t upset with me. However, when he returned, he noticed my puffy eyes and asked what was wrong. Initially, I tried to downplay my feelings, but when I revealed that his earlier comment had genuinely hurt me, it sparked another round of tension. He withdrew into the bedroom, giving me space, which was painful for me as I’m someone who struggles to ask for it. I ended up on the balcony having a panic attack, feeling overwhelmed by stress, especially since I was facing possible job loss. After an agonizing period of crying, he came outside and, despite my attempts to express how I felt, I was too emotional to articulate my thoughts clearly, which led him to leave again. When I calmed down and went back inside, I found him lying on the bed. I asked why he had walked away, and he explained he thought his presence was making things worse, although I just needed to express myself. Feeling hurt by his lack of willingness to comfort me, I broke down again, expressing feelings of abandonment. He eventually invited me to him, and we discussed the situation in a calmer manner. Things seemed to improve until I brought up how much his gaming bothered me, especially since it often led to frustration for him. He revealed that gaming was his way of coping with his depression about being unemployed. He conveyed a sense of frustration, feeling that he couldn’t have a bad day without it affecting me. I recognized that my sensitivity to other people's emotions might trigger this reaction. Eventually, he left again, and when he was crying, I tried to comfort him, but my need for support led me to ignore his requests for space. I found it difficult to allow him that distance, crying and pleading not to be pushed away until I finally relented and gave him the space he needed. Once I started to compose myself on the couch, he came out playfully, and we briefly engaged before discussing the tension from earlier. He apologized for his earlier behavior. However, a request for intimacy surprised me, making me feel hesitant. He assured me it was fine if we didn’t engage, but then he returned to the bedroom without much explanation, which hurt me again. When I followed him to the bedroom, I asked for cuddling, but his response felt dismissive, leaving me even more hurt. I needed comfort, and while he eventually held me, it felt forced. I later woke feeling anxious, and as my breathing became heavy, he held my hand for a moment before turning away to sleep on his side. This change in his demeanor made me feel more anxious, prompting me to leave the room for the couch. When he realized I had gone, he called for me, apologizing, but I didn’t want to return. It’s worth mentioning that he was trying to quit smoking that day, which likely contributed to his irritability. I never imagined things would escalate like this, and it made me question whether he felt a desire to comfort me during my toughest moments. Despite our nearly two-year happy relationship filled with laughter and affection, I now feel abandoned and betrayed. He’s a wonderful partner in many ways and has been true to me, but this situation has left me feeling lost about how to move forward.